Sunday, January 8, 2012

Waiting...

I've never been one who was good with waiting and this proves true once again as I am forced to be patient. Too much idol thinking time is not a good thing when in the midst of this. Dr. Trevor assured me that taking the time to get all the necessary information before moving forward is a good thing...true I suppose. But,

More tests= More anxiety

...all par for the course. Hmmmmmm-I'm not so sure I'm a fan of this Cancer thing.

In the meantime, I've been keeping busy:

-walking daily with mom (we missed one day and it wasn't a good thing for either of us)
-playing with my new phone; I'm already addicted to instagram and words with friends, even though I consistently lose all the games I play.
-text messaging my awesome friends constantly throughout the day; they give me the daily needed pep talks and are my personal cheerleaders. My BFF even sends me a morning greeting everyday to help get my day off on the right foot-sometimes my response is not so pleasant...sorry Shann!
-hanging out all day and everyday at mom and dad's (and pretty much getting nothing else done-who really cares, right?)

By the way, did you know that once you are diagnosed with cancer, you are pretty much convinced that every ache and pain and lump and bump is Cancer. Dr. Trevor asked me if I had any other bumps and I said, "
Yes, all over my body!" He reassured me that that wasn't true...(love him!)
Luckily I was also warned about this when I was first diagnosed (merely a week ago...geez it seems like months) and I try to talk myself off the ceiling (about 50 times a day).

This post has turned into a disconnected rambling of my thoughts at the end of a long day...so sorry for that. I will stop now before things really get crazy.

Enjoy two of my Instagram pics of my daily motivations to kick Cancer's Ass (sorry).

Find patience in the breath of life.