Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Today is the first day...

As a little kid, I used to sit in my Aunt Sue's car and stare at a sticker on the dashboard that said, "Today is the first day of the rest of your life."  I also remember a little yellow chick on the dash with google eyes.  Right now I can't remember if the chick had the quote or if they were two separate things, but anyway... 
....I remember reading that quote over and over and over and I just could not (as a child) really figure out what it was trying to say.  I was confused by it, so much so that I still remember it vividly over 30 years later (and I don't remember much of anything prior to what I ate last night for dinner).  I guess I knew that someday it would make complete sense to me...I would just have to read it repeatedly and remember it, until it did.  

I have never felt like I have taken the blessings in my life for granted.  Really, I have often wondered why I was so blessed to live my life and have even verbalized a few times that I was waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Surely there would be some cross for me to bear as it can't really all be this good? (Open mouth, insert foot). 

 When reflecting, I am able to see that there indeed have been some times and circumstances that have been challenging and difficult, but also life changing.  In the end, my life is better and more complete because of them.  Infertility and miscarriages were part of the traveled road to the adoption of my children. Where I started out in my journey to have children is certainly not where I ended up, but in a million years, I would not change a thing.   "Sometimes on the way to a dream we get lost and find a better one."  The pain and anguish during that journey is such a distant memory because the new dream is just so much sweeter.

And this journey, well, I'm going to count this as the other shoe dropping, and will be sure never to verbalize that again.  

Each time I visit the doctor's office, I'm intrigued by this poster that hangs on the wall.
I think it describes the process perfectly.  Starting out on this journey feels much like that of a caterpillar, crawling along minding it's own business and blending in with those around it. 
Life then becomes much more complicated as the caterpillar begins to transform and morph into something not so subtle or discrete.  The caterpillar is "forced" to do things for which it is unfamiliar and uncomfortable. The transformation is both physical and emotional. It is a complicated process, but, in the end, emerges a butterfly, completely transformed and able to do things it was unable to do as a meek, quiet caterpillar.  

 My journey is a long one with ups and downs, but in the end I'm certain my life will be sweeter, and in many ways it already is. I understand that the journey to being a butterfly does not happen overnight, that the journey is part of the process and that all will be beautiful in the end.  I  have my family and friends serving as my cocoon.  I'm learning to look at things one moment at a time, even though the planner in me would like to have it all done right now at the snap of my fingers.  I'm learning to be patient with the process and enjoy the journey along the way.  


After all, "Today is the first day of the rest of my life."  I CAN choose what to do with it, and right now, I'm choosing to live each moment for what it is without looking any further.

10 comments:

chenyingying9539 9539 said...

2015-7- 2 chenyingying9539
hermes
coach canada outlet
louis vuitton outlet
gucci
beats by dr dre
true religion
michael kors
prada uk
jordan 11
michael kors bag
gucci outlet
ray ban sunglasses
jordan 6 cigar
ray ban outlet
hollister outlet
louis vuitton handbags
louis vuitton handbags
louis vuitton outlet
oakley sunglasses outlet
burberry outlet
timberland boots
michael kors outlet
polo ralph lauren
christian louboutin outlet
chanel handbags
michael kors handbags
beats solo
ralph lauren
michael kors outlet
jordan shoes
longchamp bags

方松腾 said...

TEN0323
babyliss flat iron
mulberry handbags
longchamp handbags
mulberry handbags
michael kors uk
mulberry handbags
hollister uk
tiffany jewellery
oakley sunglasses uk
fitflops uk
fitflops shoes
ralph lauren outlet
ralph lauren pas cher
tiffany and co
oakley sunglasses wholesale
hollister shirts
tiffany outlet
hollister shirts
coach outlet store
mulberry sale
oakley sunglasses
oakley sunglasses wholesale
ray ban sunglasses
oakley sunglasses
hollister clothing
kate spade handbags
burberry outlet online
coach outlet online
true religion jeans
burberry outlet

Fangyaya said...

supra sneakers
fitflops uk
louis vuitton
michael kors handbags
uggs on sale
ugg boots
canada goose jackets
ugg boots
new england patriots jerseys
louis vuitton paris
coach outlet
louis vuitton outlet stores
coach outlet
coach outlet store online clearances
ralph lauren polo
kate spade outlet
coach outlet store online
michael kors uk
ugg italia
true religion outlet
vans shoes
coach factory outlet
fitflops sale clearance
cheap ray ban sunglasses
rolex watches
air max 90
adidas shoes
pittsburgh steelers jerseys
official michael kors outlet
chenyingying2016826

Fangyaya said...

supra sneakers
fitflops uk
louis vuitton
michael kors handbags
uggs on sale
ugg boots
canada goose jackets
ugg boots
new england patriots jerseys
louis vuitton paris
coach outlet
louis vuitton outlet stores
coach outlet
coach outlet store online clearances
ralph lauren polo
kate spade outlet
coach outlet store online
michael kors uk
ugg italia
true religion outlet
vans shoes
coach factory outlet
fitflops sale clearance
cheap ray ban sunglasses
rolex watches
air max 90
adidas shoes
pittsburgh steelers jerseys
official michael kors outlet
chenyingying2016826

wesan michael said...

nike huarache
tiffany and co outlet
skechers outlet
ralph lauren uk
timberland outlet
basketball shoes
tiffany and co outlet
ultra boost
oakley sunglasses,oakley outlet sunglasses
ray ban sunglasses

Unknown said...

fitflops
michael kors handbags
north face uk
adidas nmd
abercrombie and fitch kids
ferragamo shoes
the north face
oakley sunglasses
red valentino
pandora jewellery

chenmeinv0 said...

cheap adidas trainers
adidas shoes
longchamp bags
cheap oakley sunglasses
oakley vault
oakley sunglasses wholesale
nfl jerseys
adidas yeezy boost 350
levi's jeans
fitflops sale clearance
2017.3.9xukaimin

Unknown said...

michael kors uk
michael kors handbags wholesale
oakley sunglasses
cardinals jersey
michael kors handbags
broncos jerseys
under armour shoes
ed hardy clothing
nike huarache
rolex replica

龙大猫 said...

yeezy sneakers
air force 1
nike polo
michael kors handbags
nike dunks shoes
light up shoes
nike air max
michael kors factory outlet
michael kors purses
yeezy boost

aaa kitty20101122 said...

van cleef arpels
links of london
cheap jordans
michael kors handbags
yeezy boost 350
reebok shoes
nike roshe uk
authentic jordans
burberry scarf
nike huarache