Several times since I've returned to work, I have had people say things to me like "How are things going? Just like you never left right?" To these comments I usually say something like, "Well..." because the truth is...
It really does not feel like I never left. I mean the job itself is much like a soap opera...it continued almost in the same place where it left off. The thing that is different is the person playing the part. I don't like to continuously wallow in my own self-pity and review the traumatic events of the past 3 years, however, I think it's also important for me to acknowledge the fact that things are not ever going to be what they once were. I'm still in the process of finding my groove, and I will tell you, some days it's not the easiest task. I still get in my car at the end of the day, take a deep breath and think, "I did it, I made it through another day", well half of one anyway, because then I get home and the 2nd half of my day is just beginning.
I'm still trying to find the balance. I'm trying to get myself to a point when it doesn't feel overwhelming to look at the day ahead of me, when I'm ok with a not so clean house, lots of laundry and thrown together meals. This transition phase is hard, especially for someone who likes everything to be just so. I'm trying to be patient with myself as I continue to make this adjustment and work through the glitches. A special "thank you" to those of you who are also patient with me as I continue to adjust...I know it's not always an easy task to be along side me on this journey, especially when the terrain is not always smooth. Thanks for packing your bags and coming along for the hike as I conquer this mountain!
*Above photos taken at Hill Orchards.