Saturday, July 25, 2015

Don't be afraid of my tears...

It's likely that if I see you and I haven't since getting the news of the intruder returning without an invite, I will cry. Heck I will probably cry even if I have seen you. Don't feel bad for me because I cry. It's part of the process. You can still hug me and talk to me and you may even shed a tear or two as well. This is hard stuff, and the tears are real emotions that come along with it

There are so many reasons why I cry. First, I'm still in a bit of disbelief that this is my life, that this is the course I must follow and well sometimes, it's just so overwhelming that the only thing I can seem to do is shed a few tears.

Then I cry that my family and loved ones also have to come along on this journey too. Their unwavering love and support brings me to tears. 

Then I cry because I'm so overwhelmed by the love that I feel from so many. The genuine kindness and caring from literally thousands of people is humbling and brings me to tears.

I may cry when I read inspirational quotes or messages I'm tagged in on Facebook, I may cry when I receive a motivational card (on a daily basis), I may cry when I receive a gift from someone I know or have never even met, I may cry when I get a text from friends and relatives, I may cry when someone sends me a quote on Pinterest, I may cry when I see all the leaps posted, I may cry when I come home from a week away and see that my friends and parents got together to clean-up my yard and make it beautiful. There are so many triggers to my tears these days, but they are mostly good. 

I know I've quoted my grandmother before, but once again her "there's nothing so bad that something good doesn't come out of it", is so very true and fitting in this situation. 

Yes, I seem to have quite the mountain to climb here, but I also have been blessed to have a support system like I've never seen or experienced. The love I have literally felt over the past month is pretty much indescribable. When I was previously diagnosed, I compared the feeling to the movie "It's a Wonderful Life".(You can click on that link to bring you to that previous post) It's still true.

There are people out there in this world facing life's hardships without the blessings I am grateful to have. I try not to lose sight of that even in the moments where it's hard to see the light. The continuous support makes that task much easier. So, thank you once again for pushing this girl forward. 

And just so we're clear, I'm not sitting around bawling my eyes out all day, using up all the tissues in the house, I'm just a bit more sensitive than usual. My tears come more easily than they have in the past. My emotions are raw. 

And now, on a different note, it's my dad's birthday. So, to wrap up this teary-eyed post, I'd like to give a shout out to the best dad a girl could have. I'm a lucky one indeed. I love you dad! Happy happy birthday to you! I love you! xo

"The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate."

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