So, it's official...I'm now a cancer patient...I have been since December 31st I suppose, but now that I've almost lost all my hair and have to resort to wearing a kerchief on my head in public, I have given my "shout out" to the world that I have cancer.
With that "shout out", I've noticed an increase in the number of people who ask me how I am doing. I guess having no hair makes it more real...I get that because I feel the same way when I see my hairless reflection in the mirror. You can try to prepare yourself all you want for what you think it will be like, but yowzers...it's still shocking, and I prefer not to "shock" in public...not now anyway.
I'm happy to say that I can respond to people's concern with "I'm doing fine." Fine..really? What is fine? Ok fine? Not good fine? Complete lie fine?
Websters.com defines fine as " in an excellent manner; very well"
Fine is just that...Fine. I'm doing well. I can function on a daily basis and go on with my life in a manner that is, for the most part, typical of any 39 year old with a husband and two young kids. I feel good, I have an appetite, I'm sleeping well and I'm trying my best to continue my regiment of walking. Do I feel fine ALL the time?..Most times, yes, but sometimes no. Can I function every day? All days except for the Friday after treatment...I am completely useless on that day...you're best to just stay away.
There are a list of side effects that I am experiencing, but on most days they are manageable and do not greatly interfere with the daily events in our home...although we have had an increased use of Liquid Plumr because of my hair clogging the drain :)
I myself have been pleasantly surprised at how fine I have been feeling, but it's true...I really am doing fine.
4 weeks down, 14 to go...
"Insane people are always sure that they are fine. It is only the sane people who are willing to admit that they are CRAZY."
Insane or not, I'm still fine...