WARNING: This post is a bit more detailed than past posts. If you're not into details, read no further.
When the Dr. starts off the conversation with the word "Unfortunately", generally it goes downhill from there. However, there were some "sweet" scenarios that came from today's visit to balance out some of the "bitter".
"Unfortunately" was followed with the news that there were additional spots in the same area found when the MRI was done. This means that instead of the surgery being a lumpectomy, it will now have to be a mastectomy to be sure all cancerous spots are removed.
What, you say, could possibly be the silver lining with this scenario? Well, we're all hopeful that through surgery it is found that my cancer is non-invasive, meaning it is contained to that one area. This would mean that the surgery would remove all of it and I wouldn't necessarily need chemo and/or radiation...that my friends is for sure the "sweet" part of all of this. Because of the "sweet", I decided to not let myself wallow for too long (note to self: do not drive in the car alone, it leaves too much time to ponder, get anxious and wallow).
And, so we wait...
Surgery is scheduled for the end of the month and my follow-up is at the beginning of February. It's hard to believe it hasn't even been a month since "the itch". Waiting makes time go oh so S---L---O---W
When we were going through the adoption process, it seemed I kept hearing this song repeatedly on the radio, and now this week, don't you know I've heard it at least three times. Waiting, for sure, is the hardest part.
Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better to take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.
PS Another post without pictures...yuck! Pictures for sure tomorrow.
Thanks for reading!