I looked at Victor this morning in the Dr.'s office and said, "Is this really our life?" He just stared back at me. He takes things in small pieces and really doesn't look at the bigger picture. I have something to learn from him. The big picture scares the %$&@ out of me, and really why go down the road that doesn't yet exist? It's a waste of time and energy.
Now that I'm done with that tangent...we met with another surgeon today, and....he had me at "hello"...well, almost. He was kind, thorough, compassionate, confident, and oh, so very smart. He will be working with an entire team, reviewing my case and confirming his initial thoughts....the idea of having an entire team is definitely comforting. The way things are looking now, I will be having surgery within the next couple of weeks. I'm praying that an upcoming MRI does not show any other spots...no surprises...I never did like them and now, well, that goes without saying.
So, for now, yes, this REALLY is my life...surreal as it may seem. I am blessed to have loving and caring family and friends, doctors and medicines to aggressively treat this disease and faith (most of the time) that things really will be ok.