It's funny how a moment initially seen as so insignificant can put you into a whirlwind and completely change your life. Christmas morning as I watched my kids open their presents from Santa, I had an itch....so I scratched it...and found a lump. Not a typical lump, but the kind the doctors warn you about.
"How do I know what to look for? What will it feel like?"
"Would you be able to feel a marble under your skin?"
I felt the marble and then said a few curse words under my breath and tried my best to enjoy the moment taking place in front of me, the moment overtaken by the reality that I felt a hard marble-like lump in my breast!
Less than one week later, on New Year's Eve, my fears were confirmed...."your biopsy tested positive for cancer"...the "C" word. Happy #!@#%$! New Year!
Today the oncologist looked me in the eye and said "we are going to cure your cancer, it won't be easy, but it will be cured." Amen to that! I will be ok. I will have surgery, I will have anxiety, I will lose my hair, I will be tired, but I will be ok and so will my family...we can do this, and we will!
And just because I don't want this post to be a complete downer....
“You can’t change a negative situation with bad feelings. If you keep reacting negatively, your bad feelings will magnify and multiply the negativity.” ~Rhonda Byrne